Personal Battles

A spirit of religiosity…It’s interesting, I see that spirit a lot. I personally feel that I don’t have that particular problem…good thing since I deal with other various problems…just not that one.

What is interesting about this you may ask. Since I can’t hear you, I’ll assume you did, in fact, ask and I appreciate that. Thanks!

Due to the fact that I don’t have this spirit of religiosity, I can’t just accept things…because of this I find myself wrestling with God in areas of my life…reminds me of this scripture:

So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.” But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.” The man asked him, “What is your name?” “Jacob,” he answered. Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with men and have overcome.” Jacob said, “Please tell me your name.” But he replied, “Why do you ask my name?” Then he blessed him there. So Jacob called the place Peniel, saying, “It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared.” The sun rose above him as he passed Peniel, and he was limping because of his hip. (Genesis 32:24-31)

Sometimes I have to wonder or even question God or what appears to be God in my life and/or the events and circumstances in my life. Don’t get me wrong, I serve God, God is FIRST in my life. There is ONE God, and I trust Him with all that I have…I worship Him and Him alone. But one who doesn’t question anything in there life, how human and truly Godly are they?

I know the word says that “I will never leave thee or forsake thee” and I take that at face value, then I find myself wondering if I’ve left God at times. Does this make me a better Christian? Perhaps a worse Christian? Who knows…all I really know is that I do all that I can to be pleasing to God, to one day hear, “Well done, my good and faithful servant, enter in.” not only that but to see all of my friend, family members, and acquaintances join me around the throne of almighty God worshiping together with no sickness, no strife, no quarreling, WHAT A DAY THAT WILL BE!

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